Friday, October 11, 2013

play to win: it's controversial

"This is my job. I will not quit it."
-Ben Haggerty, aka Macklemore, controversial American rapper

Playing euchre with my older brother or my brother-in-law is tricky in that they both play the same way; they are fierce, dynamic card throwers who always "play to win" and take no prisoners. Sometimes when I lay a card against my brother-in-law he will say "that's controversial", as if I've mastered the strategy and have a game plan. In reality I have no such plan and am only thinking one move at a time. Do you feel this way in life in general? Are you playing the hand you've been dealt moment by moment, or do you have a long term game plan.

This article today got me thinking about my "job" and choice of occupation. People do often say to me "do you think you'll ever get a real job?". I used to teach preschool and kindergarten and I finished my last teaching position pregnant with my twin boys. To be sure, I never really knew if I would go back to teaching but always thought maybe one day I would do something outside the home and confines of the role of being a housewife and mother. As busy as I was, I couldn't imagine what I would do or when would be the right moment to do it. For me, being a full-time mom and part-time mommy-blogger is the perfect combination to feel creative and fulfilled as well as useful and productive. I don't think of either role as a "job" but rather a lifestyle choice; a choice I am happy to make. Should the blog be bigger, bolder, and fill more of my time to make it a "real job"? For sure. I get how the game is played. For now, success is just in the pure enjoyment of doing, evolving, and continuing to put all of my cards on the hand of being a mother first and foremost.

Take the hand you have been dealt and play to win, no matter how controversial.

(written at 11:30am in my "office", aka the kitchen, while listening to the unplanned mix tape and cooking homemade applesauce and chili, folding laundry, cleaning, and paying bills.)

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